Mr. Smiles

I think I may have found the BEST smile in the world.

And the guy who owns it? Yeah, he's in my class. It's extremely hard not to stare at him the whole time.

Sometimes I see him smiling or laughing to himself, and once I said something and he turned his head away like he was trying to hide his smile.

A couple weeks ago, I had a newspaper sudoku on my desk, and he had just walked in the door. My friend sits between us, and she wasn't here yet. I was so immersed in my sudoku that I didn't notice him standing behind me looking over my shoulder. Then I heard: "So, are you a sudoku master?" (Greatest pickup line ever. Haha.)

I nearly had a heart attack. I totally wasn't expecting it. He doesn't talk much, almost never in class, and here he was, talking to ME. I was gobsmacked. Then I managed to blurt, "Oh no, I just do them for fun." Which probably made me seem like a huge nerd, but it was better than not saying anything at all. I think.

And then today, I had a midterm, so I got to lecture really early. I walked in just as the other class before me got let out. I was walking down the aisle toward my seat, looking at the ground and trying not to get trampled or step on people's feet. Then all of a sudden I looked up, and there he was, right in front of me.

At that exact moment, he looked up too, and for a second he looked a little surprised. Then he smiled and said, "Oh, hey." It was grey and cloudy outside and I had a midterm in five minutes, but that smile of his made everything go away.

I mean, HE SMILED AT ME. At me. He recognized me. Acknowledged my existence.

I nearly melted right into the carpet. But instead, I smiled back and said, "Hey." Because how can you NOT smile when a gorgeous guy-who-could-be-a-Greek-god is smiling at you? Exactly. You can't.

That smile stayed in my head all day.

Unfortunately, sometimes he looks kind of stressed out and sad. Whenever I see him like that, I want to say, "SMILE, damn you." Sadness doesn't belong in anyone's life, but especially not in his. Anything that can make a smile like that disappear has got to be pure evil.

I want to make him smile again.